do you feed yourself? -kes

its the most basic question.
before answering consider the following

• do you yearn?
• do you wish?
• do you dream?

is a 'yes' answer somewhere in that list? i confess i am no different.
if i do everything i'm supposed to, why is the state of yearning, wishing, & dreaming so perpetual and often intolerable, like a rat in a cage?

i want to change my art. how does that happen? taking classes & buying books are both sensible, educational attempts. but art is a wild animal. it does what it wants. elusive wild animals rarely parade down Main Street at rush hour. [i will concede its possible.]

what i am trying out are new 'eating habits'.
richard dreyfuss in Close encounters of the 3rd kind is a poignant illustration.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yecJLI-GRuU
devil's tower doesn't come to the front door of the house like a polite neighbor coming to tea.
dreyfuss's character observes, gives his time, and eventually goes to the source of something important.
i am observing & giving my time in new ways lately.

this isn't a defense of alien obsessions. consider some therapy for that, if applicable.
it's about inviting in that which makes one want get out of bed, to not play in traffic.
it demands, deserves, & needs airtime.
what is it? like dreyfuss i don't know and honestly i prefer the mystery.
i just know it's calling and i am picking up the phone.
wheels and dead vegetation completely seduce me. answering the call makes my life better.
this is the close encounters mashed potato phase of my life.

adopting wayward hubcaps during dog walks

pulling up roadside reeds that bite

https://youtu.be/AEIcSNs4IQE

a video document of hours spent in subfreezing temperatures arranging the inanimate

carpe diem and pass the potatoes.